You’re allowed to want more with someone. You’re also allowed to enjoy amazing sex. Just don’t confuse the spark with something sustainable that can lead to long-term success
Kids are exposed to sex in subtle and not-so-subtle ways all the time. What makes the difference is whether they feel safe, supported, and informed at home.
It may be “just sex” to him. But for you, it’s clearly becoming more than that. It’s time to prioritize your needs and do a cost/benefit analysis of the situation
Even if waiting this long to engage in intimacy wasn’t on your vision board for life, you can begin shaping a more positive narrative around it and not worrying about being “good” or “bad”